I’d broken down different books to represent different aspects of my life. Currently I have an idea, random thoughts, work related, and one that contains writings about one person only. I’m very inconsistent with my writings. Some months I’ll write day after day, while others I’ll write once or twice.

I’ve had people tell me that I can write when I try, and that’s a problem. I don’t want to try to write something meaningful. It’s how I am in almost every aspect of my life. I want to just be, and let things happen. Putting forth the effort is putting myself out there. Maybe for the potential of doing something great, or maybe I’ll get hurt in the process.

I write down things on the PC and erase them, or I’ll ponder over a phrase or a word and then just delete it all because it all seems ridiculous. I do want to write more than just a ramble, but after 5 minutes of writing, my brain refuses to continue on a serious path.

Maybe I’ll let it all out, maybe I’ll see where I go from here.

Can I stop it next time?

I was once talking to a girl, who unfortunately suffered the loss of her husband from suicide. In fact, it was a self inflicted gunshot that killed him.

So I’m talking to her and I watch this video about some Japanese prank dealing with a sniper, and because I’m a dumbass, I send the link her way without thinking and I’m fucking yuking it up and then she tells me that it isn’t that funny.

I feel like a total jerk, in fact, that comes off pretty insensitive to not even think about how someone feels.

Yeah, that’s my life, constantly saying or doing many insensitive things without thinking it through.

I am a dumbass.

I believe God can help you find happiness

This is by Reverend Run, from Run DMC.

If God is Love, how could someone be in love w/o a relationship w/God?

This is from some random moron on Twitter.

Let’s break these both down, because they both bothered me.

Let’s get this straight, you don’t need to believe in a damn invisible being, whom may or may not exist to be happy. You create your own happiness, no one else. People like to attribute their success and happiness to some mythical Zeus looking deity, when you’re really only as happy as you make yourself.

And that second quote from twitter is just plain stupid. Silly Christian should do his homework and see God is a vengeful and spiteful god that is willing to kill those who disagree with him. No one needs God in their lives to love. Love is a basic human emotion that has never needed an invisible monster to justify its existence.

Ok, those were ramblings, but I still stand by what I say that these are two very stupid statements when it comes to god.

There is no need to believe in God to have happiness or love in your life.

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The thing is this, it’s great when it’s just in my mind and in my dreams, but the second I put it on paper, it became a 20 car pileup disaster where nothing could save it from a fiery wreck that takes at least 5 lives. I mean, it’s a good plan, but it’d be a great plan if it were anyone but me.

So usually this is how I work past 11pm at night. All ideas are good ideas until the morning, when they’re just dreams.

Now, if I was to head to a bar, I’d expect there to be smoking, and being an adult, I can make choices for myself. So, I can either go and breath in smoke and get, OMG SECOND HAND SMOKE, or just go somewhere else where there isn’t a cloud of smoke in the air. It’s really not that difficult of a decision. I don’t want my RETARDED government telling local establishments that they have to ban smoking. It’s ridiculous. If people don’t like it, open up a bar that doesn’t allow smoking indoors to give you and your hippie retarded loving friends a place to go without being harmed by the ghastly smoke.

Now, I’m not entirely nuts, which I’m sure many lefties might think, but I don’t think there should be smoking in work, around your kids, OR even when you’re pregnant with your child. That’s just plain dumb. But, I feel if you’re an adult, you can make adult decisions on how you wish to surround yourself with smoke or no smoke and that you should also know to not smoke around your child. It’s all about our own personal choice. No one forces you to go to these bars, so quit fucking complaining. My government shouldn’t force my local watering hole to ban smoking.

I’m not here smoking to harm you, you’re here harming my choice by involving government because you’re too stupid to make your own choice, to fucking leave.

Now, it looked like they took the standard $1.99 for non-HD content per episode and $2.99 per HD content per episode and just added them together. It’s rather ridiculous to assume people would pay for this content when you can simply wait for it to arrive on physical media. In fact, I don’t think I’ve seen any Bluray sets more than $55 lately.

I don’t know how companies feel they’re justified in charging the consumer that much for something that’s digital. I understand bandwidth costs etc etc, but it feels to me they are out pricing their digital model to drive people away from it and stick to physical media.