Sorry, but it’s over

What a week it has been. I never thought at the beginning of the week so many mixed feelings of emotions would occur, but they have. I won’t cover all those emotions, because I feel some are a bit private for such a public place, maybe someday I can talk about what I feel more openly. But, on Wednesday, I was laid off from my job, due to restructuring within the company. Now, I’m not mad that they did it, in fact, I knew it was coming. I had already gotten word on this and was planning for the inevitable. This happened a lot sooner than I was anticipating and so many of my plans are kind of screwed up right now, but I’m fine and I’m getting by at the moment. But something else happened on Wed, and people close to me will know what, but yeah, two bad discoveries in the middle of the week don’t make for a great week.

EDIT: I also somehow developed my first ever migraine the night I was laid off. Horrible feeling. I had to turn off the TV (which is a super bright Toshiba Regza) and all lights. I couldn’t even be on the PC because it was killing me, not even Excedrin helped me, only sleep. And, I’ve also developed this bad habit of CONSTANTLY licking the back of my bottom row of teeth. I think it’s a nervous habit right now due to what’s been going on. It’s still irritating the crap out of me. Although, I don’t know if it’s caused by the lay off or because of my medication.

I’ve been applying for jobs all week long, searching and searching for something. I always feel it’s kind of a fruitless effort most of the time. I have been looking for a replacement job since September when there were rumors about the company closing. I’ve been on a total of 2 interviews in 6 months time, so I’m not super confident on everything right now. But right now it’s the beginning of the year, so hopefully companies are hiring and I hope this recession we’re about to enter isn’t going to effect the job market too bad.

I’m not upset, far from it. I’m half way relieved over all this, I just wish I had a better backup plan. I won’t start worrying too much about everything until a couple weeks from now. I have all the time in the world.

The worst part to me right now? I don’t have anyone to come comfort me during my time of need, give me a hug and kiss and tell me everything will be fine.